To expose One's emotions

I have feigned sleep,
preoccupation, or a hostile levity
when I realized by some
unmistakable sign that an intimate revelation
was quivering on the horizon
for the intimate revelations of young men,
or at least the terms in which they express them
are usually plagiaristic and marred by obvious suppressions
Reserving judgments is a matter of infinite hope
I am still a little afraid of missing something if I forget that
as my father snobbishly suggested
and I snobbishly repeat
a sense of the fundamental decencies
is parcelled out unequally at birth. (page 1)